I am sitting in the most ridiculous position. I am building garden programs in the community I have been part of for a decade or more. Lining up free edible garden education to help people grow their own foods using organic methods. All while eating rice and beans being gentrified out of the same community that I have given to for so many years. Nothing can stop this from happening.
I gather donations to feed the homeless every 2 weeks, all while wondering how to keep my power on. I work tirelessly on the RV project to offer a solution for those suffering from homelessness. Yet my fridge is empty and I literally have 1 roll of toilet paper remaining as I type this. I do get emotional at times but then I re-focus my mind reminding myself that freedom is just a few short months away.
So crazy when I realize the thread I am hanging on by will soon be detached as I float toward the next part of my life. Just as the fear of change engulfs me and I realize I will not have a place to call home in 2 short months. That same wave of emotion I think of the adventure that lay ahead and I get excited and wish for it to already be here.
I think of the silence night will bring when I leave the city, the stars I will see vividly above me, the communities and farms that will be both a place to learn and a place to share my knowledge with. Remembering the beauty I saw when I traveled this great country of ours with the bands I managed. I get excited for what is coming soon with this adventure. So many possibilities. Truly the sky is the limit. Yet at the same time, tears stream down my face and I get slightly melancholy and feel a little fearful at the unknown. I remind myself of who I am and what I have accomplished and to have faith that this is the right path.
I wipe the tears from my cheek and crank up the radio and get lost in the music thinking of the freedoms and the sights soon to be had, the music puts me in this amazing mood and I remember that I can do anything I put my mind to. Pulling up the boot straps and launching this project, literally leading people in to a new way of living, having faith that what I am doing will change the lives of people involved.
When I let the ego sleep and allow myself to be a conduit to receive the messages and direction and guide people, powerful things will happen. Thanks to all the supporters who give energy to this project.
I am literally staring at the fork in the road choosing to take the road less traveled and bringing a whole caravan or people with me!! I joked that I feel like Moses about to lead my people to the promise land. Thankful for so many like minded people that are all across the US encouraging me to show people that there is a new way to live and inviting us to be part of their communities, one that allows you to be free from the shackles of the dollar bill.
Here is a great site I will leave you all with to get a better understanding of the alternatives we are looking for http://www.onesmalltown.org/